"Always" keep Him with you.

Dear all,
even though not many people read this blog, i hope to make an influential experience for those who choose to take the time.

Recently I watched a music video for the song "Always" by Building 429 and found myself asking just like the people in the song. I may not be great at expressing myself and being inspirational on my readers, but I hope to try this time. I am graduating soon, and looking back on my high school life, i realize i have been missing many things; a girlfriend, a steady group of friends, and a youth group and church group i can rely on for my problems. with the first issue, not having a girlfriend, i dont have too much of a problem with. I feel that when the person comes, they will come. I may feel lonely now, but i just try to keep telling myself that He is watching and along with Him i will find the right person for me. I'm not into the whole social dating scene. I feel that if i cant see myself spending the rest of my life with someone there isnt a point and we can be great friends without all the social drama of being a couple. which is the main reason why i went to prom this year alone with a group. and i see this at work with a friend of mine. she and her boyfriend seem to have made it work and have found each other, i just want to find that same type of person... maybe i'm being stupid and self absorbed but whatever tell me in a comment.

As for the second problem, i feel like a social butterfly, but my main problem is that in Shaker where i live, my class is only interested in smoking, drinking, and partying... none of which i do. if i could change one thing about my graduation class i would find a group of people who have some ounce of morals in them. I hope to find these type of people at college next year. even if it means joining the methodist church out there..... :D

On the third point, i always have wished that Fairmount church had a great youth program. We have GREAT facilities, and GREAT GREAT staff, but just no organization and direction. it makes me sad to think about and hear about all the great stories and trips other churches' youth groups enjoy and the participation they draw. I always wanted to give Fairmount a chance but they blew that chance and now here i am, a senior, graduating and nothing to show for it. my faith journey has been a self led thing, my favorite church service, gone, my youth group, dead, and my social life, nonexistent...but
"I believe always, always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and his promise remains
He will be with you always"
-Building 429


watch the video in "HQ" the sound is much better.